From venus to mars

I’ve gone through many labels in the past and I will continue to do so. For now, however, I identify as a transgender man with xenic leanings.

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Transgender

Ever since I was 5 years old, I had this feeling that there was something particularly off with me. Not that there was something wrong, just something very very different than what other people assigned me, and I did what I could to express that.

I went through classifying myself as nonbinary, multigender, and even chaosgender at some point, until I came to the conclusion that I preferred being a man. But I don’t regret how I used to identify nor how I was born, I loved being myself at every stage and I learned many things from being a girl and off the binary. I just happen to like being a guy more!

My definition of masculinity centers around responsibility and accountability, instead of the typical strength and aggressiveness people think of. To "man up" means to take responsibility of your actions as well as your’s and other’s safety. I try my best to embody that.

I like to think that I’m comfortable with my masculinity. I still dress up and proudly look and act feminine (you can pry the burnt debris of my black lipstick and eyeliner from my ashes, thank you very much), but that doesn’t change who I am inside whatsoever, instead, it only adds to the experience. ^_^

Xenogender

…On the other hand, I am xenic to some extent! It isn’t the main part of my identity, though, more like bonuses that improve or further label the experience. Like.. If being FtM was 100%, then my xenic stuff would be 10%, totalling to 110%. Because I’m quirky like that….

I don’t stick with a single xenogender label nor is my gender expansive enough for me to collect an entire hoard, but I guess I can be considered horroric and/or a genderthreat. I experience gender euphoria rather weirdly, so I use these terms to explain it.

The horroric flag.

Horroric: An umbrella term/gender alignment for genders related to all things horrifying, terrifying, morbid, macabre, scary, creepy, eerie, uncanny or otherwise disturbing. (Coined by unknown, but I got the flag from latyore on Pinterest.)

The genderthreat flag.

Genderthreat: A gender related to desiring to or being percieved as a threat. (Via adorable-abomination on Tumblr)

I like being a threat. Not in the way that I’ll cause actual harm to other people (hell no, I intend on staying soft and harmless), but in the way that I’m something to envy or fear, whether that manifests through being too intimidated to approach me, through being envious and aware of my skills, or simply through being creeped out with how I act or look.

Is that weird? Bad? Do I care? I have no fucking idea, man…! I’m just trying on shoes to see which ones fit best until I have to buy new ones. Bare with me here.

Neopronouns

    My sources of joy:
  • gri/grim/grime/grimes/grimself
  • ag/agi/agita/agitas/agiself
  • hau/haun/haunt/haunts/haunself
  • dau/daun/danger/dangers/daunself
  • fi/fien/fiend/fiends/fiendself

As for my neopronouns, I just use them because I like them. I also made my pronoun sets myself (with the exception being fi/fien), so I guess I’m more of a self-made man that way. x)

..Also, while I’m okay with he/him (it’s on thin ice, actually), I refuse to let anyone disregard my neopronouns in favor for going with something more “plain” and “easy-to-use”. I am not a plain and easy person. I am complicated and hard-to-explain. As an act of reclamation, my pronouns reflect that. If you can’t use them while still viewing me as a man, do not refer to me at all.

Heres a website for those who don’t know how to use neopronouns, but care enough to learn. Thank you!! <3