2025

Date posted: 12/25/2025
Current mood: Reflective
Listening to: Nothing this time around..

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2025.. What a fucking year /pos

In all honesty, despite all the downs I've gone through this year, I truly do think it was a good one. I've gone through a lot of change since the end of 2024, and while I am STILL getting used to it-- I think I really did need it.

I'm not sure how to recap all this shit.. A lot of things happened. But I'll try.

Let's see..

  1. Realized that I am indeed Transgender As Fuck. God bless.
  2. Moved schools, made some amazing friends (all on my own!!)
  3. Had one hell of an identity shift. Not sure how to explain it, but I got through this one successfully :)
  4. Got a job. (..Which I'm probably going to quit soon, but it's good experience either way.)
  5. Started taking care of myself more often.
  6. Grades and overall academic success took a fall for a moment, but I managed to pick myself up and live through it. It doesn't define me anymore.
  7. Started doing fun things/experiments with my art.
  8. Became 10x more edgy, good fucking god -_-
  9. Also became 10x cooler. So that's fun.

Things that Also Happened, but I'm still not so sure how to feel about...

  1. Contacted my dad after.. ten years. Fuck that guy, man.
  2. Ghosted some friends for a bit (in my defense, I wasn't quite right in the head at the time) but we're good now. Except for one, but she has other people to worry about now @_@
  3. The yearning phase (not in a romantic sense.. Just for more people in my life overall) started. Help. I already know like 6 people why am I insatiable.

..And more that I'm probably forgetting right now. Point is, 2025 was a year of change for me. It wasn't always a comfortable or easy change-- no shit --but they all turned out well in the end. I'm really happy.

I still feel lonely. I still feel pessimistic as fuck. But, like I said before, I can bounce back now. The world's not going to end anytime soon. I'll be fine.

..Still don't know what I'm going to do with my life, but wherever I end up, whatever happens, I just hope I'm happy. That's all I've ever wanted, man.

Merry christmas, and happy fucking new year ^_^