I want, I want, I want…

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I’m the insatiable type— Not ungrateful, per se, just.. constantly hungry for something, anything, everything.

This hunger makes me feel like I’m starving, honestly. In a both metaphorical and literal way. I both crave things I do not have and, well, I have a big appetite!

I live fine as is, but, I don’t know.. I just don’t feel satisfied nor fulfilled.

I want:

• to cut my hair shorter
• to become a polyglot, or at the very least, trilingual
• to finally have a PC after all these years
• to be able to play games with my friends
• to feel normal
• band merch I’ve been eyeing but unable to buy
• clothes I actually like
• more music for my collection
• more friends
• people who just get it
• a less noisy life
  (+ household, family, etc…)
• ..love, strangely enough??
  (I don’t plan on pursuing it but.. It’s a thought I visit regularly)

To balance all this yearning out;

I'm grateful for:

• my mom
• my culture and language
• my hobbies
• my bed, plushies, pillows, and blankets
• art, stories, and music
  (I love you, horror art and stories.)
  (I love you, metal and industrial music.)
• the delicious food I get to eat at home
• the long roadtrips, where I get to sleep in all day
• the people that decide to stick with my crazy ass, even though we don’t have much in common
  >(E, this one goes out to you, even though you probably don’t know that this site exists!)
• that really nice horror movie I just watched, Espantaho (2024)